tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59426832024-03-23T14:01:33.674-04:00I Don't Need No Stinkin' Titlewww.mzouiser.comMzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.comBlogger601125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-3869394105094381842010-05-05T14:29:00.003-04:002010-05-05T14:33:04.420-04:00No Time for Blogging AnymoreAnd this is why.The new love of my life, my newborn daughter Bridget. She is keeping her Daddy and me very busy... but I have never been happier in my life. suddenly my world is very small, very demanding, and very, very perfect.Someday, I'll have a lot more to write about. But for now, I'm just Mommy.Bless all of you.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-80829705995615820302010-02-17T11:44:00.003-05:002010-02-17T12:24:31.818-05:00So THIS is what they mean by weird preg dreams...Last night I dreamed I was traveling down south somewhere, someplace with white eyelet curtains, artsy murals on random brick buildings, and 70+ degree weather. My dad was there, and a whole bunch of women I didn't recognize, but who all seemed to know me. I was lounging on a bean bag chair when I realized I was in labor. My dad and I looked at my stomach, and we could see, clearly delineated,MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-89508517410623492722010-02-11T13:04:00.007-05:002010-02-11T14:10:05.614-05:00Imbolc 2010: Grow and GlowFinally, it's here.Some women feel this the minute they get confirmation they are pregnant. They are just there. They're excited, they're in love, they are so ready for everything coming. The morning sickness, the aches and pains, none of it really matters, they are full of the joy of mommy-to-be.I think the majority of women feel it in the second trimester, when the morning sickness and MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-53446702414281682292010-02-04T10:45:00.004-05:002010-02-04T11:22:35.912-05:00Sick sucks.The thing about being pregnant that really sucks: If you get sick, you can't take anything for it.That's not COMPLETELY true. You can take Acetominophen (Tylenol). You can take Sudafed. But if those don't work for you, you're screwed. No Advil, no Aleve, no aspirin. No Mucinex. Certain antihistamines (i.e. THE ONES THAT WORK) are off the menu. And of course, caffeine intake has to be MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-49874666554856366702010-01-17T12:15:00.002-05:002010-01-17T12:27:27.919-05:00Pregnancy Ups and DownsAs of last Friday, I'm 27 weeks along. It's a girl!I have edema, which is causing carpal tunnel. My left arm just tingles all the time. My right wrist HURTS. I also have been insomniac for some time now, and recently have had a significant loss of appetite. I'm still working at the pub, 6-hour shifts on Mondays and Fridays. When I get home from work, I can barely walk. My heating pad and MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-80008592864503981632009-11-19T15:21:00.001-05:002009-11-19T15:21:13.067-05:00Happy NewsI wanted to scan in my sonogram picture and be all clever about this, but I'm having no luck with my home scanner or the one in my local library. So, without visual aid, I am finally ready to tell the world:I'm pregnant!I'm 4.5 months alongDue date April 16thit's a girlWe haven't chosen a name yet but are narrowing it downno I haven't felt it kick yetGardiner and I are thrilled. Our parents, of MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-20233004376658536182009-10-15T09:16:00.001-04:002009-10-15T09:17:57.321-04:00Here we go again...The uncertainty. The waiting.I don't have the patience to write while this is going on. I'll be back one way or the other.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-26645193263352591752009-09-11T08:30:00.000-04:002009-09-11T08:31:20.066-04:00Survival, Rememberance, GratitudeIt was a workday like any other, and then we lost our internet access. And the phones started acting up. And no cell service. Multiple calls to the IT desk. "We're working on it, something system-wide."Then the word spread through the office, since someone had a radio. First disbelief. Then anxiety. Then terror. Then a decision: just walk.The utter quiet on the subway. The apocalyptic absence of MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-20488859191062077252009-08-16T08:03:00.002-04:002009-08-16T08:18:00.511-04:00Jewish Lesson of the DayFrom Wikipedia:shomer negiahNegiah (Hebrew: נגיעה),[1] literally "touch," is the concept in Halakha that forbids or restricts physical contact with a member of the opposite sex (except for one's spouse, children, grandchildren, parents, and grandparents).[2] [3] [4] A person who abides by this Halakha is colloquially described as a Shomer Negiah (one who is "observant of Negiah").[5]The laws of MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-72280410390985030622009-07-21T10:28:00.002-04:002009-07-21T10:31:01.834-04:00BOIL DAMMITIn the 80's, we waited for the phone to ring.In the 90's, we waited to hear "You've got mail!"In the 2000's, we wait for our cell phones to ding, indicating a new FB post, or Tweet, or text.It never gets better.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-59980363425143793232009-07-06T14:40:00.005-04:002009-07-06T14:55:00.499-04:00Remembering LuckyToday an old friend reminded me that we once tried to rescue a baby pigeon. We found it alone and forlorn on a busy Astoria sidewalk. It was tiny, still fluffy, and looked very disoriented. Our hearts went out to it, we couldn't just leave it there to die. There were alley cats and stray dogs and taxis and rollerbladers and bike deliverypeople and cruel young men with big boots. We scooped MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-25301938230111553862009-06-29T13:54:00.001-04:002009-06-29T13:54:59.241-04:002009 NYC Gay Pride2009 NYC Gay PrideOriginally uploaded by patch_nyI was so thrilled to be a part of this year's Pride celebration. I got to reconnect with my long-lost blogger friends, and made some new friends too. I'll post something more about it later. It was an amazing day.Photo Credit: Patch_ny on Flickr! Love you hot stuff.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-4202587114448968432009-06-15T09:44:00.005-04:002009-06-15T10:22:12.727-04:00Sunshine, Bagels, and LoveI'm feeling so much better, in every way.The flu is finally gone, out of my system. From my research, it is entirely possible that I did indeed have the Flu du Jour, H1N1, Popularly known as Swine Flu. Apparently it is a short lived flu, which mine was, and isn't any more deadly or vicious than other common human flus. I was in the city, both Chicago and Manhattan, and I was at the local mall,MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-33105357257579797052009-06-12T13:53:00.002-04:002009-06-12T14:00:53.027-04:00GAWD that moon is brightI feel hungover, like I've been passed out for three days. Meaning, I do feel better, I think the flu is passing away from me. My body is EXHAUSTED.In spite of this, I'm going to TRY and make it to services tonight at our local temple. If nothing else I know the music is great there.I feel like I've come through a war. A familiar feeling. I have been at war with myself, in a way. Not MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-69563860191384780262009-06-11T12:43:00.002-04:002009-06-11T12:47:15.657-04:00Flu Day 2Feeling somewhat better. Anything better than yesterday I am grateful for. Yesterday all I could was, to use G's expression, lie under the covers and jitter. I knocked myself out with Nyquil so I could get some sleep, and that seems to have helped a bit. Today I still have a low-grade fever, but the muscle stiffness is better, and my sinuses have opened up. Still have a headache though.I hadMzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-48270586713827062142009-06-10T13:33:00.002-04:002009-06-10T13:35:22.974-04:00InfluenzaToday, I am sick.I got the achy-shaky body. I got the upper respiratory distress. WITH accompanying sore throat from choking on phlegm all last night. I got the fatigue. I got the restlessness. I haven't hardly been out!! I haven't hardly seen anyone! Christ. I have some work I really wanted to finish today. I can barely fucking type.Shakes fist at the netherworld HEY! What else you gotMzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-46484671125803395902009-06-09T17:04:00.003-04:002009-06-09T17:52:12.238-04:00AbyssI'm tired. I don't feel like talking. I feel like I've already talked everything through with G, my parents, and K&L. I'm just tired.I am angry. I'm really pissed. I was derailed. I was doing SO WELL. And then SHIFT. and then PSYCHE! SHIFT again. And now...I was feeling better about myself than I have felt in years. I was healthy, strong, happy, and enjoying life on deeper levels than MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-23829959192961826712009-06-05T11:45:00.002-04:002009-06-05T11:53:02.050-04:00RestlessI can't sit still these days. Even first thing in the morning, while I'm drinking my coffee, I'm walking around the aparment, fiddling at the computer, messing about in the kitchen, usually knocking things over or tripping over things, because I'm still half asleep.Blogging requires sitting still for more than 10 minutes, so that's why I'm never around here these days.Facebook requires far less MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-71643390691184766912009-05-20T10:34:00.003-04:002009-05-20T10:38:26.495-04:00HauntedLove no more, I have got a prayerI ask forgiveness everywhereDevil unseen, please stop bothering meI've got a broken man to repairBrakes aren't working nowI'm trying to stop this trainOf desperation, loneliness and painNothing's up ahead, the lights are supposed to be thereAnd you probably think I never caredI hope to God one day you find some peaceWith the memory of meNow it's all in your head, MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-17080622626202938922009-04-10T18:15:00.001-04:002009-04-10T18:15:00.925-04:00Passover 2009Passover 2009Originally uploaded by MzOuiserMzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-47470632316414741972009-04-10T09:17:00.005-04:002009-04-10T12:18:50.978-04:00Passover 2009This year, we didn't have any guests for Passover, so I was free to do pretty much whatever I wanted. Just to see how much I could do, I went for... well, not the whole shebang, but more than I've done in previous years. I decided to do the Big Cleaning.Chabad.org has a fabulously detailed series of web pages devoted to how to prepare the house for Passover, including "Operation Zero Chametz."MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-63788903276872618552009-03-27T00:00:00.003-04:002009-03-27T00:07:29.902-04:00The Witching HourI have just arrived home, and I am drunk. Sort of. Not like I used to be drunk. Just nicely drunkish. Three beers and one shot of bourbon, plus two big glasses of water and a plate of sweet potato fries. I feel GLORIOUS. WONDERFUL. FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC.I sang tonight. I went to the jam at my local pub, where G and I have been regular patrons since I moved here. The owner knows me, the waitMzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-64689003298609415232009-03-25T08:35:00.002-04:002009-03-25T08:38:37.829-04:005 - 4 - 3 - 2 -I'm spending today in the city.Yesterday was a great, productive day.Something inside me is incredibly quiet. Like after a thunderstorm. It's... peaceful.Hopefully, it won't rain today.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-971512947492103562009-03-24T09:42:00.002-04:002009-03-24T09:45:26.139-04:00Week 4I saw my psychiatrist yesterday. I like him because he's no-nonsense. He's not an analyst, he's a physician, and I've had years worth of analysis, and I'm ready for some treatment. So I go in to see him, we get right to the point, we talk about efficacy, side effects, things to look out for, schedule next month's appointment, I hand over my co-payment, and 20 minutes later I'm outta MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5942683.post-633929288387398582009-03-22T11:37:00.001-04:002009-03-22T11:39:43.069-04:00SundayThank you, Great Lady of Light, for the many blessings in my life:My husbandMy familyMy catMy friendsMy voiceMy healthMy sense of humourMy humanityMay I live the best life I can, in honor of all I have received.May it be so.MzOuiserhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00415226499839048964noreply@blogger.com0