Other than that, the study session went very, very well. I now am unsure as to whether I would have passed this test without these study sessions. I had forgotten far more than I realized.
Little reminders of my fallability such as this cause me to examine other areas of my life. I keep thinking about what I wrote after my interview:
Have I become so spoiled and soft that I won't be the office whirlwind I once was? For that matter, I've been loving the freedom of temping with my fabulous agency for two years. Will a permanent job, in one place every day, for who knows how long, bore me to tears? Can I be a one-company woman? I've been a committment-phobe for a long, long time. I got burned so badly by my job that ended in 2004... Do I really have it in me to do this?I'm sure I'm just jittery. I do feel more confident than I did when I wrote the above passage. I am ready to start work. I am even more ready to start collecting paychecks.
I've never been good at waiting though, and I think I'm pretty calm today, all things considered. Maybe I have new things to "bring to the table" this time around.
Take some Advil, have some coffee, wait. I have "Antonia's Line" on TiVo.